I can't help but think about the big surgery looming in my near future. My last chemo was 2.5 weeks ago and my surgery is scheduled for December 8. I am trying not to think about it too much but I am a little scared. I stay two nights in the hospital and then go home to recover til Jan 4. I hope I only need until then... when my surgeon was signing my paperwork, he asked if I wanted 6 weeks off instead. Yikes! I hope not! Let's all hope I'm good to go after 4.
I'm feeling fairly good these days but I'm still not exercising because of my back. Really, I am using it as an excuse to be lazy because I think I could swim, even bought a bathing suit on Black Friday! I now look very pro and ... pudgy. There are still little things that no one notices like the fact that some of the nail beds on my fingers are a little detached from the nail. Gross and a little painful but nothing too bad. I still don't see any hair growth on my head and keep asking Doug to look for me. I am as bald as my 4 month old niece Chloe. I feel that gives us a special bond when I talk to her on Skype. She can relate better to her Auntie Nini. I can't wait to see in late December when she comes to visit with her parents. I just hope I'll be able to hold her. She has been a blessing of a distraction since she was born a week after I was diagnosed.
I have an appointment this Friday with a back surgeon (one that suggests surgery as a last resort) so we'll see how it goes.
Apart from that... just enjoying my time with Dougie.
Thank you for your on-going support.
Love,
Mo
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Mo, I have been thinking about your upcoming surgery every day this week. I know that everything will turn out perfectly but I can't help feel a little apprehensive about the unknown....like what your recovery will be like. You are in expert hands, everything will be as smooth as possible and we'll be thinking of you every minute.
ReplyDeleteHi Mo,
ReplyDeleteI understand that you are feeling apprehensive...I personally would be scared out of my wits. As for taking 6 weeks off rather than 4...you will be recovering from major surgery, so I don't see the harm in thinking about taking the extra time your doctor is offering. Even if you're feeling okay, it might take a while to regain your strength fully, especially with what you've already gone through physically. But you know yourself best. I'm glad Doug is home and you're enjoying your time together.
Hugs,
Jen